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An autobiographical poetry and art book, heartaches’ poems are as universal as they are personal. The poems are conceived as flashpoints of heartaches that reflect painful moments in the author’s life.

Growing up gay, biracial (half-white and half-black), liberal and agnostic in small-town Texas imbued Donovan Lord’s life with a mountain full of heartaches.   Told through poetry, heartaches revisits many painful moments in the life of the author from heartbreak, to suicide, racism to homophobia, and marriage and friendshiop, heartaches reflects the various means of pain that the author has endured over a 25 year period.

heartaches also features Donovan Lord’s artwork and photography in conjunction with each poem to elevate and complement the emotional experience of the book.

An introspective, innovative debut, heartaches reminds us of the transformative power of emotional pain and the indomitable human spirit.

This book is one for anyone who can relate to, at once, the unique and ubiquitous nature of the issues that heartaches addresses.  Readers will finish this book not only knowing the journey of the author’s life but with a better understanding of themselves and by promoting the healing of heartache of one’s own.



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Meet The Author

" i've lived the life of a gay man, a white man, and a black man - all at the same time. "

heartaches is a book of autobiographical poetry written over a 25 year period.  The book features artwork and photography in conjunction with each poem to elevate and complement the emotional experience.  Dealing with topics from throughout the life of the author, including love, heartbreak, LGBT, race, politics, family, being an outcast and misunderstood and others, This book is one for anyone whom can relate to the ubiquitous nature of these issues since they are merely a part of the human condition.

Weight 12 oz
Dimensions 5 × 8 × .5 in

1 review for heartaches



    We’re at the end of Pride Month and our very last post of the month is an incredibly special one. We were so lucky to be given an advance reader copy of Heartaches by Donovan Lord. This collection of poetry is an extremely personal narrative of the author’s life. Lord, a bi-racial, gay man, takes on the task of documenting great portions of his life, often painful and challenging.

    The content of Heartaches reflects exactly what its title denotes: a montage of painful moments. Of mental health, and mental illness. Of love and loss. Of unrequited love. Of racism. Of homophobia. Of aloneness. Of identity crisis. Many, if not all of us, can relate to these topics on some level.

    In the past couple of months, I have been reading more and more poetry, much of which is specifically biographical poetry. Without knowing it, it seems as if I have been searching for something, some kind of connection to be found through other people’s words. There is something oddly cathartic about sharing your pain with someone, whether it is through talking or reading it on the page. That is what I felt when I read Heartaches. Though I could not relate to every experience, nor do I think it was necessary to, it was nevertheless, really refreshing to see that not everything in literature has to be uplifting or positive, only honest.

    The poetry itself is poignant. Lord states in the introduction that this collection is not attempting to be academic, but that it is deeply personal. And true enough, Heartaches may be one of the most personal collection of poems I have ever read, and while I would advise readers to exercise caution as it may be triggering, I absolutely would recommend this eye-opening book to everyone.

    What I love about this collection is that, even though each poem is well-written enough to be standalone, the structure of the collection creates an overarching narrative. Lord guides you through each juncture of his life, meticulously and almost surgically opening each of his wounds and traumas to the reader. They say that it is difficult to look away from an accident even if you want to because there is something fascinating about it, something drawing you back. Heartaches is no accident, but it is just a difficult to look away from.

    Heartaches is perhaps one of the most visceral poetic experiences I have endured. Lord does not try to be pretentious, vague, or complex in his jargon. He manages to balance blunt honesty with a constant poetic rhythm. And while the writing style may come across heavy-handed at points, the raw pain and emotion behind each poem justifies that. It requires heaviness, pain, and more than a little bit of sadness.

    Lord’s candidness about the darkest moments of his life – of suicidal thoughts and attempts, of hopelessness, of constant pain and trauma – is jarring. But it’s important. Because at the heart of Lord’s personal pain, there is a very harrowing reminder that racism and homophobia still very much exist in this world, no matter how much we would like to pretend they do not. In fact, it serves as an additional reminder that even though we do not always “see” racism and homophobia unfold, that does not mean it is not a systemic issue in society.

    Many of us take our privilege for granted when we live in diverse spaces where acceptance and tolerance eclipse bigotry. Lord’s frank portrayal of his experience in the south, where he grew up a bi-racial, gay man, shatters the comfortable bubble many of us are living in.

    It serves as yet another reminder of all the LGBTQ+ warriors that have come before us, and of the path they have paved for the current and future generations to live in a better world.

    Lord makes very clear that though there are some saving grace moments – like moving forward from the past, breaking free from toxic relationships, and accepting himself for who he is – this collection is not necessarily about the light at the end of the tunnel. It is an unapologetically raw and often traumatic account of the harshness of life. Lord’s beautiful, dark writing is accompanied by beautiful, dark visuals that he himself has either drawn or photographed.

    Look out for Heartaches out on August 6th 2019, or pre-order it now here!

    ~ S & Z~

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